I just realized that I’m starting to try not to get close with anymore people, because I’m terrified of the same thing happening over and over again. I get so fucking attached to people, and tell them everything. And then I either lose interest in them right away, or I feel like they’ve lost interest in me. When I lose interest, I spend so much energy on wishing they would just leave me alone, and I waste a lot of my time being angry and upset and annoyed at them, and at myself for getting close with yet another person I realize I don’t like. When I feel like they’ve lost interest in me, I freak the fuck out. I refuse to talk to them until they talk to me. When they talk to me first, I gain reassurance, and I stop freaking out. But when they don’t talk to me, I feel fucking awful. I automatically assume they realized how fucking stupid and annoying I am. I feel like they’ve grown out of me, you know? It’s the worst feeling, and it sometimes it takes me weeks to get over it.
same here.
omgosh! exactly! glad I’m not the only one
